Sen Çağırdında Ben Gelmedim Mi

Yoklu&#;unda ne ate&#;leri hasretimle yakt&#;m da
Bir seni yakamad&#;m, beni yakt&#;&#;&#;n gibi
Çölde su, mahpusta gün, oruçta ekmek gibi bekledim seni
Sense araya korkular koydun.
Yasaklar koydun
&#;imdi nerdesin diye sak&#;n sorma
Sen ça&#;&#;rd&#;n da ben gelmedim mi?

Sen varken dar&#;lmazd&#;m çiçeksiz baharlara,
Ya&#;murlu havalaraBu kasvetli ak&#;amlara
Sen varken
Bak&#;p içlenmezdim tren istasyonlar&#;na
Otobüs duraklar&#;na
Sen varken ayr&#;lanlara a&#;lamazd&#;m
Y&#;k&#;lmazd&#;m biten sevdalar&#;n ard&#;ndan
Gidenlere küsmezdim
Kalanlara ac&#;mazd&#;m
Sen varken böyle ü&#;ümezdim-titremezdim
Masumdum, çocuklar gibi
Böyle delirmezdim-küfretmezdim
Hele ölmeyi hiç dü&#;ünmezdim.
&#;imdi soruyorum sana
Ad&#; sevdaysa bu cehennemin
Sen yakt&#;n da ben yanmad&#;m m&#;?

Biliyorsun
Bütün ac&#;lar&#;na 'ye&#;il &#;&#;&#;k' yakt&#;m olmad&#;
Bütün korkular&#;na'arka ç&#;kt&#;m'olmad&#;
Da&#;lara merdiven dayad&#;m olmad&#;
Haziranda kar oldum ya&#;d&#;m avuçlar&#;na olmad&#;
Sevdim olmad&#; -yand&#;m olmad&#;-tapt&#;m olmad&#;
Art&#;k benden pes
Bu a&#;k&#;n biletini istedi&#;in gibi kes
Nas&#;lsa gidiyorsun
Biliyorum git
Ama ard&#;nda
A&#;layan bir çift göz
Paramparça bir yürek
Ve y&#;k&#;lm&#;&#; bir da&#; görmek istemiyorsan
Çek silah&#;n&#;-daya s&#;rt&#;ma
Titrersem namerdim
Sen vurdun da ben ölmedim mi?


In your absence, what fires I burnt with your yearning, though
I couldn’t burn you, as you burnt me
Like water in desert, days in prison, bread in fasting, I waited for you
But you only put fears between us
You put bans
Don’t ever ask me where I am now
You called me and didn’t I come?

Don’t used to offend to springs with no flowers, while you were here
To the rainy skiesthese melancholic evenings
While you were here
Don’t used to look and sigh to train stations
To bus stops…
While you were here I don’t used to cry to ones get seperated
Don’t used to get down after finished loves
Don’t used to offend to the going ones
Don’t used to feel pitty for the staying ones
Don’t used to feel cold like that and shiver, while you were here
Was innocent, like children
Don’t used to get mad like that - dont used to swear
At last I dont used to think of dying
Now I am asking you
If it is hell the name of this love
You burnt me and didn’t I burn?

You know
To all your pains, I turned on 'green light', we couldn’t make it
For all your fears, I was 'back', we couldn’t make it
To the mountains, I put stairs, we couldn’t make it
I was a snow in June, snowed in your palms, we couldn’t make it
I loved, we couldn’t - I burnt, we couldn’t - I adored, we couldn’t
Well then, I give up
Cut the ticket of this love however you want
Somehow you are going
I know, go
Though after you
A couple of crying eyes
A heard ripped to shreds
A ruined mountain, if you don’t want to see
Hold your weapon - push to my back
I am a coward if I shiver
You shot me and I didn’t die?